Desire

Sometimes i look into the past and i wonder how ideal could it be to share and be with someone you once died for
but unfortunately it could never work cause of many wrong decisions i guess.But then i wonder again "Would it be really ideal?"
The most unfair part is the chance those never gave you.And then present still can't erase that desire.And the never ending WHY echoes from your inside for once more.And you're left only with some happy heartbeats that die as time passes by.You remain a cripple person who always fix those beloved faces but only a few times fix you back.And this is me..a cripple person still on "standby" waiting to rise from the ashes...